I should have written this blog a long time ago, but in all honesty, I was in denial of the situation. But it's gotten a bit ridiculous and people keep asking, so I'm going to finally address it now.
The Kiss Off 3: All Access Pass has been shelved. For the moment. For the foreseeable future. I will write it eventually, but in all honesty, now is not the time I can do that.
I did start writing it. And I didn't enjoy it. I didn't particularly like what I had or where it was going. If I'm going to write it, I want it to be good for you guys. And YOU want it to be good. And at the moment, I'm not feeling it. I've lost the passion I used to have for writing romantic comedies, and writing fiction at all, really. I keep plotting books in my head and on paper and telling myself I'm going to write it, but something keeps stopping me from ACTUALLY writing. I've put a lot of pressure on myself and fiction, so much pressure on ENJOYING WRITING again, that I can't make myself start.
To be perfectly frank, it can be really disheartening, you guys. All that time, effort, heartache and money spent on producing a product that most readers like to illegally download for free rather than actually purchase. Yes, most. I see those sites too. If I was currently writing books for the love of it like I used to, then it would be okay. Not good - but not as bad - I would still have that love of writing books and getting paid would be a bonus, not an attempt at trying to support myself. But I have a casual job to support me that I'm always scared from month to month isn't going to. And at the moment writing's not a fun pastime for me and, I don't know about you, but I don't like spending the amount of time writing a book takes on an activity I don't enjoy if there's not going to be much in the way of payoff in the end, be it satisfaction or monetary. You know what I'm saying? You know what I'm saying.
I need to focus on things I do enjoy, and things that are going to pay the rent.
So at the moment I'm not writing fiction. I'm writing a pop culture website called Pop Culture Tragic, which I AM enjoying. You can check that out, or not if it's not your thing.
I'm hoping that this time off from fiction will reinvigorate me, that when I have a dabble in fiction again I'll be able to get that joy back.
In the meantime, I'm trying something new.
Sorry I didn't tell you earlier. I've always considered myself a writer; all I ever wanted to do was be an author of fiction. And to admit it out loud to myself and to you like this makes the fact that right now I'm not an author, and potentially may not be again, too real.